value

value |ˈvalyoō|
noun
1. the regard that something is held to deserve; the importance or preciousness of something.

2. (values) a person's principles or standards of behavior; one's judgment of what is important in life.


"in the end, it's not about finding someone, or even about love.
it's about improving yourself, and being your best self."

where did you go?

what happened to the boy who told me "make him buy you ice cream"?



-it's raining in my room.
-i keep getting phone calls from some financial company and they're not even looking for me.
-i'm extremely confused about the opposite sex.
-i feel like i have 2 moms lately...one is enough, thank you.
-i'm pretty much broke. <---my fault. i could try harder to find a second job, but it is frustrating since i already have a job, i'm just not scheduled til the end of february.
-i almost got caught in a lie about going to san francisco next weekend, but i came clean. now i feel better and i don't have to worry about using my credit or ATM card up there.
-i went through something the past few days that i'm not going to tell you about, but @^*&*^&)#(*#@! grrrrr! <-- this leads back to being confused about the opposite sex.

sigh.

"Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return."
-T.H. White

trust.

it's strange how, even though its online and you can't hear the tone of someone's voice, the same words coming from 2 different people can have such a different effect.

"you'll be okay."

coming from one person i feel like that statement is totally true and it gives me comfort. coming from another person i feel like they're saying it because they don't know what else to say and it has no truth behind it.
luckily i trust the first person more.
unfortunately i wish i could feel that way about the second person.


sigh. life is hard.

i need you.

boys, aquariums and bowling

do i keep trying, give up and move on, or just sit back and see what happens?

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i'm avoiding cleaning my room to write about mine and sammy's little adventure. wednesday night we drove up to monterey and found a decently priced hotel room. thursday morning we woke up, got ready and headed to the aquarium! it was pretty rad. i thought it was going to be a little bit bigger, but it is right on the water and it was a beautiful day out. that alone made it worth it. after the aquarium we wandered around a little bit and had a mint chip sundae from ghirardelli. yes, good enough to write about.
anyway, we decided since we were that close to san francisco we had to go visit josh, so we drove to oakland to pick him up from work then drove to san francisco. we met up with some people from there and from simi at a bowling alley in pacifica. i have never bowled such a horrible game in my entire life, but it was still really fun. driving all the way home after that...that wasn't so fun. sorry sammy for falling asleep on you!
i can't wait to go back up next weekend for the ashy to classy party. i hear geary gang parties are the best.

i probably could have made this more interesting but i'm lazy. and i need to finish cleaning my room so i can feel better about being at home all day.


jellyfish at the monterey bay aquarium
photo by: me :)

spontaneous adventures

it is 3:15 am and me and sammy are sitting in a hotel in monterey.
we decided we wanted to go to the monterey bay aquarium and drove 5 hours to get here. so we are waking up in approximately 7 hours to go to the aquarium. then possibly going to visit josh in san francisco when he gets off work.

yay! :)

san francisco

i should have written about my trip sooner. now i don't know what to say except for it was incredible and i can't wait to go back again!