back to being happy...

please just leave us alone.
stop with the "warnings" and the stories.
we've heard them all.

let me find out for myself.
let me be happy.

it's not fair.
what have i done to any of you?

i think i like you...

i think i like everything about you
and i'd think about you
if i ever got a chance to meet you
would you ever notice
would you ever think to notice my affection
and if you ever noticed
i'd make sure you were headed in my direction

and if you feel the same
then give me the time of day

and you'll call me
wonderful and lonely
those are two words
that don't go together
i'm a free bird
free bird fallin' down for you
and i'll do
whatever i have to
to get through to
to get through to you
i don't know when
i'll ever give up on you

i think i like you
i'd like to know everything about you
what would i get if i got you
what would i get if i decided to see you
could you make me a promise
could you lead me to believe i'd never worry

never give up on me,
and let me fly to you

and if you feel the same
then don't be playin' games

and you'll call me
wonderful and lonely
those are two words
that don't go together
i'm a free bird
free bird fallin' down for you
and i'll do
whatever i have to
to get through to
to get through to you
i don't know when
i'll ever give up on you

i'm happy.

i feel like everyone is against this.

why can't you just be happy that i'm happy?

or accept it and let it be.

i really need you

i need my best friend and my daddy.

why do you both have to be gone?

i know i could get ahold of adam if i really needed to, but still...why can't you just be a simple phone call away?

and my daddy...i would give anything to be able to talk to you. i miss you more than anyone could imagine.
everyday i wish you were here with me.

oh and...

happy birthday mom!

like i said, you don't look 60!










p.s.
the new lily allen cd:
at first i thought it was just okay, but now it's really starting to grow on me.

who'd of known?

a week ago, i probably would have told you you were nuts.



it's five o'clock in the morning
conversation got boring
you said you'd go into bed soon
so i snuck off to your bedroom

and i thought i'd just wait there
until i heard you come up the stairs
and i pretended i was sleeping
and i was hoping you would creep in with me

put your arm around my shoulder
and it was as if the room got colder
and we moved closer in together
started talking about the weather

said tomorrow would be fun
we could watch a place in the sun
i didn't know where this was going
when you kissed me

are you mine?
are you mine?
'cause i stay here all the time
watching tele, drinking wine
who'd of known?
who'd of known?
when you'd flash up on my phone
i'd no longer feel alone
no longer feel alone

i haven't left here for days now
and i'm becoming amazed how
you're quite affectionate in public
in fact your friend said it made her feel sick
and even though it's moving forward
there's just the right amount of awkward
and today
you accidently called me baby

are you mine?
are you mine?
'cause i stay here all the time
watching tele, drinking wine
who'd of known?
who'd of known?
when you'd flash up on my phone
i'd no longer feel alone
no longer feel alone

let's just stay
let's just stay
i wanna lie in bed all day
we'll be laughing all the way
told your friends
they all know we exist
but we're taking it slow
now let's just see how we go
now let's just see how we go

let's just stay
let's just stay
i wanna lie in bed all day
we'll be laughing all the way
told your friends
they all know we exist
but we're taking it slow
now let's just see how we go
now let's just see how we go

famous?

today i was introduced to someone as:
"this is giulia. she lives at the famous 8th street house."

i can't decide if this is a good or bad thing.

i'm going to lean toward good.
i do enjoy my house and my friends that hang out here.

“We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm and adventure. There is no end to the adventures that we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.”
-Jawaharlal Nehru

responsibilities suck.
i wish i could get rid of all my bills, quit work, travel the world and have fun!

the second saddest day of my life...so far.

adam and chance left this morning.
we all went to breakfast and then to the airport to say goodbye.
other than dealing with the death of my dad, this had to be one of the hardest things i've had to deal with.
i know i'm probably taking this harder than i should be, but i can't help it.
adam is one of my best friends. i love him to death, and the thought of not having him or chance around for a long time...well it just sucks.
i am happy for them though. i know they're going to have an amazing time.
i wish i could be there with them.


i love you guys.
please be safe.