the second saddest day of my life...so far.

adam and chance left this morning.
we all went to breakfast and then to the airport to say goodbye.
other than dealing with the death of my dad, this had to be one of the hardest things i've had to deal with.
i know i'm probably taking this harder than i should be, but i can't help it.
adam is one of my best friends. i love him to death, and the thought of not having him or chance around for a long time...well it just sucks.
i am happy for them though. i know they're going to have an amazing time.
i wish i could be there with them.


i love you guys.
please be safe.

hawaii is lucky.

i don't think you realize how much i'm going to miss you.

my life

dear friends, shit talkers and everyone else...

i want to let you all know that i love my life. see me how you will, i'm not going to change and i'm happy with who i am.
don't call me a slut, or something along the lines of a slut, just because i have a lot of guy friends and am really close with a few.
don't judge my friends. i've learned to surround myself only with people who bring out the best in me. we all have our flaws, but there's a reason i'm friends with them and not friends with people like you.
my friends out here are some of the best friends i've ever had. they make me the happiest i've ever been. they are the realest toward me than anyone i've ever met.
i'm happy here and if you're not one of the people i'm referring to above, i really don't care what you think.
i think i'll stay this way for a while.

sincerely,
me


and since i'm talking about good friends...

yesterday i was asked something that is probably one of the nicest things a friend could ever ask. i was talking about how when the boys get back from their hawaii/new zealand adventure i want to see them the day the return, and out of the blue adam asks me something along the lines of "when you get married, since you don't have your dad to walk you down the aisle, can i walk you down the aisle and give you away? ...as long as the guy isn't a douchebag."
it may sound weird, but i think that would be amazing.
i can't think of a better person to take that spot.

other things can wait

twlight

in less than 24 hours!!!



p.s.
i want to mention again how much i love living in idaho.
boise is friggin rad.
come visit me!

behind the times

i've been a little behind the times when it comes to movies and tv lately. i've recently been trying to keep up though by watching all the movie trailers on the "front row" application on my computer.
i've decided i really want to see this movie:



there is a possibility that it has already come out in theaters...but i'd still like to see it.

p.s.
tomorrow (well today technically) is halloween...and i'm going to be batgirl :)

also- copeland is in 6 days! wooooo! :)

i want this to work.

i really hope i can trust you and that you aren't going to let me down like all the others.

i found out some things tonight that make me nervous, but i like you. i want to give you a chance.

please don't ruin this.