oh my

in an hour and 8 minutes i'm going to be old.
24 years old.

sigh.

tired of everything.

i just don't care anymore.

boise

i <3 you.

wind, wind, go away...

the wind is making creepy noises outside.
i don't like it.

anyway, watch this video:
http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/ken_robinson_says_schools_kill_creativity.html

it's so true.

if you're not prepared to be wrong,
you'll never come up with anything original.

-ken robinson

all children are born artists,
the problem is to remain an artist as we grow up.

-picasso

it's starting to feel like spring

it's finally been sunny and warm the past couple of days.
today i was able to enjoy one of those days and it was the nicest of all.
it got to be about 75 degrees. it was perfect.
mark and i hiked all the way to the top of table rock.
the hike pretty much kicked my ass, but it was worth it.
it was nice just being outside, in the sun, not freezing.
neither of us had our phones on us.
just the company of each other and some water.
it was nice to be away from the world for a couple of hours.
i even got a little bit of a tan.
yay for the possibility of not looking like a ghost again!

i'm excited for the summer.
i've decided that in about a week and a half i'm going to put my 2 weeks in at best buy.
it's just not worth the stress anymore.
there are a few people i will miss there, but i'm sure i'll still get to see them.
there are a couple of people that i will not miss at all.
some people just need to grow up.

it's still nice out. i don't know why i'm sitting inside doing this.
i should be on a bike ride right now, but my bike isn't here...
:(

maybe i'll go sit on top of the hill.

i don't know what to do

everytime i think about it i feel like someone just punched me in the stomach.

promise me you wont hurt me.
promise me everything you tell me is true.
promise me you'll let me know if something changes so i don't feel like an idiot.

you ask how much i like you.
i tell you i really like you.
you ask, how much is that.
i tell you a lot.
you ask, how much is a lot.
i want to tell you how much that is,
but i wont until i know you feel the same way.
i hope you feel the same way.

i'm past the point of no return.
if it all goes downhill, it wasn't meant to be and i'll understand that,
but i'll be heartbroken.

i believe it will work.
i believe you wouldn't hurt me.
i believe the things you tell me.
i believe in us.

california.

i'm here.
it's weird.
things just aren't the same. not that i expected things to stay the same, but...well i don't know.
it was really nice to see a couple of people though. i do miss some of my friends.
it was also really nice having dinner at my aunt and uncles and seeing my cousins. i miss parker!

tomorrow it's off to oklahoma. woohoo?

i'm anxious to go back to boise.
i miss it.
i miss someone.

i'm hoping this roadtrip will be fun though.
we stuffed the mini cooper. it's so packed, my mom and i got new shoes today and had to figure out where to put them. hah.
speaking of...i went into the van's store on topanga for the first time. the one that looks super old.
i never knew they made vans in so many colors! it was amazing!

anyway...

goodbye california.
hello oklahoma.
idaho, see you soon!